have you ever spend 1 hour in the bed trying to wake up from a deep sleep, and when you succeed, you felt a sudden giddiness in your head? and you can’t even move and need to remain motionlessly?

that’s me on last thu morning (2 days back).. guess i am too sick too even go to work.. i really struggled to get up early to go to work, cause i have alot of unfinished work to do.. but i just can’t pull myself up.. this is so torturing..

after which, i slowly walked down my stairs.. trying to calm myself down and to maintain myself.. i didn’t encountered such weakness before.. it’s like.. it just hit me.. how could i be so weak till i can’t even walk..

there are actually some reason to trigger..

1) not enough rest..

2) think of my work too much..

3) over stress myself..

after washing up, i walked myself to change, i can’t even finish my bread.. then i walk extremely slowly to the train station.. and that was my first time taking NEL to punggol and back to outram park.. i told myself to sleep and rest in the train while i can.. and when i reach outram park, i saw huibin.

Then we walked very slowly cause i told i am not feeling well, will be fainting anytime. he too.. was sick.. with flu.. then we walked very slowly to our workplace after transferring to tanjong pajar..

and when i reach my dept, it’s already 8.50am.. my colleague saw my face, so pale.. she told me to take a MC and go back and rest..

but i was like.. can’t.. there is no one to cover my job and there are really so much work to do.. i can’t possibly leave the mess to her like that.. so i began to rest more during my work and took 1 cup of warm water each hour.. after which i told the rest of my intern friends that i wouldn’t be joining them for lunch.. i told myself if i ever walked out of this building to Lau pat sat for lunch. (cause we are big group, we sure eat lunch outside the big table under the sun..) i am sure. i will faint there after a few mouthful of food.. so i decide not to join them..

so during lunch, jon and i have a nice time eating at the cafeteria.. we ate for 45mins and spent 15mins lying on the couch at the staff lobby area, he read his newspaper while i took a short power nap..

afternoon time to me is much better.. i keep telling myself not to give myself any more pressure.. i can’t handle that anymore.. somemore i have a dinner with my aunts later that night.. so i can’t afford to collapse just like that..

and thank God, all wells end well.. i survived.. the chilling section at night did help me relax alot.. then i got to eat my favourite new york cheese cake (actually i prefer oreo flavour.. haha)..